...last night

...things have taken a turn for the worse. I hate this place. Last night my brother was almost jumped by three guys on his way home. He came home pissed off saying the chased him. I was heated so we hit up my cousin and went looking for them...and found them. We got it into a ruble 3 on 3. The fight stopped when my brother cracked one of the guys on the head with the bat. The worse part of it all was my brother knew the guy...it was a "homie". They started bitchin that it was an unfair fight, saying how can we have a bat....personally, i think trying to jump someone 3 on 1 is kind of a bitch move. Anyways we left when they started to call up more people. Now who knows whats going to happen?..

...help.

Things haven't been going so good at all. Yesterday i went to see my x just to see how her and her family were doing and everything was pretty cool, well she was being awkward. I didn't care though cuz i was having fun. We didn't really get to talk much...so at night i decided to call her. Things were going good till the past was brought up, then things really go heated and emotional. I was not good...this is still a really sensitive subject. I don't know what the hell is going on anymore. I don't even know how i feel...somehow i want her back. I want to be with her. I feel alone.....the sad thing is i don't think she feels the same. I think shes over me and just trying to move on with her life. I just cant understand why she was crying so much?...does she still care?..and if she does than what should I do?, Should I try and put back together what wasn't working?..then if i do, what am i going to do about my best friend Brenda and our prom date? I mean, i really do care about both of them.....I love Cindy, but Brenda was their for me and i don't want to back down from my promise. Haha, damn...this blog is a relieve, Mr. Palo wasn't kiddin:/. Well anyways i don't know why i act like if somebody is actually going to read this, but ooooooohhhhh well.

My weekend....

Worked my ass off!!...started Friday right after school, don't even remember when i got off? Had to be back next day for meeting at 8 in the morning, so woke up 6:30...lame. After went with my friends to Denny's, got me a Meat Lovers Trio!! Supper delicious!:_)...then went to the liquor store got me and MD 20/20. First time trying it...it was good, had to chug it though cuz i had to be back in at work by 12. Felt awesome!!!...for about 2 hours, then got a headache:/..rude customers suck. Went home around 10...fell asleep, only to my surprise i had to be back in at 12 in the morning. Worked another 8 hour shift AGAIN. Saw my homegirl right after work and kicked it with her till 11:30. Went home knocked out...woke up to the sound of my school alarm: 4:30....dismiss. There was no way i was going to school...

American Gov. Reflection

The discussion in class on Thursday brought many interesting points. I do believe no one should have a "secure" job in the competitive market we have in America today, if some one can do it better, then why not??? Teachers shouldn't be allowed to get too comfortable, for they tend to lack in caring over time. Another point is weather the parents involvement so take a more serious tone in the students academic path. Personally, being in high school for a student means the start of your independence, and the ability to show your parents, and all other authority figure that you are capable of being responsible for yourself. Lastly, that fact that teachers have to make class "fun" is a lot of nonsense. Sometimes life isn't always fare, but for your future...you must make with what you got. "When life gives you lemons, you paint those shits gold... -Atmosphere."

Love

Why is it you cause so much pain?
when I have been nothing but fair to you.
I never took your name in vain,
and still you left my heart all cold and blue.
It's funny how much I cared,
when everything was great and fun,
but i had never once to dare
dream, it would all be lost and done.
My guess is that you never ment no harm,
for I do not have a single regret,
you just ment to warn me, like an alarm.
My message: I can forgive but wont forget...
                                            -Miguel V.

I pod update...

Show Me A Good Time - Drake

"How did I end up right here with you
after all the things that I been through
spend money those days
we try and forget about
take the shot and let it out
lets get right
now that I’m here baby…"

Refelection...

When it comes to the Educational reform i am for it...but only to some extent. I do believe that America shouldnt have to spend so much on a failing educational system, but instead focuse on how to better improve it. In targeting the teachers and other public worker unions, the Federal and State gov. are only being unfair. If one is to correct a problem, you must correct it in its "bigger branch"...we must look into the Fed. and State gov. to fix the problem rather than individual schools and districts.